ANAHATHA: 3 Divine Downloads to Awaken the Spiritual Heart

blog Mar 19, 2018

I just celebrated 10 years of Anahatha, my spiritual transformation and personal development practice. If you have been on the journey with me, you know what a fabulous time of growth, healing, and recovery it has been! When I first began, I used the expression “Anahatha: Experience the Heart Energy”, but now, as the journey on year 11 has just begun, I am slightly modifying that to what feels true now, and that is, “ANAHATHA: SHARE the Heart Energy”!!!

In my blog last week, S.H.A.R.E, I wrote about the “divine download” I had with regards to the phrase S.H.A.R.E. And after the ANAHATHA 10 Year celebration recently, I am even more clear that S.H.A.R.E is where it is at. If you are wondering what this is all about, go back to the last blog, read that (3-minute read), and come back, and then read this blog to the end!

My heart is filled with love and gratitude to have spent the afternoon with past graduates of the I AM Consciousness Program, Retreat...

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blog Mar 15, 2018

Many times we feel like the road to recovery is an endless dark tunnel of gloom and despair. Some give up too early or exit the tunnel, off to yet another scenic (or painful) detour, restless in the darkness. Some go round and around, circling the drain, facing the same challenge. The lesson keeps repeating in our lives until it is learned.

Through my work in recovery, healing, and transformation for over twenty years, I have found that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and that the light is within me. But first I have to really know this. And that begins with awakening and remembering…


I awaken and remember who I really am

I embrace my inner divine light

I accept that I am loved by God

I see that the light of God shines through me

I am cosmic alignment

I am Loveable

I am Loved



The journey from line #1 to line #8 is the work. It’s not for the faint of heart, but so worth it.

If you are ready to live, love...

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Ready, Set, Shine!

blog Mar 06, 2018

I found a document around 6 months ago, the sheets of paper had turned a light shade of yellow. The recycled paper on the back says “Windows 98 Printer Test Page”. I haven’t been able to put my finger on the exact moment in time, or the specific context that triggered this writing. I do know that it was somewhere between 1998-1999 and that it would make complete sense if it was in that time period. It was an emotionally intense, cathartic and extremely painful time. I had been hitting rock bottom over and over again, cycling through the same self-destructive patterns of the mind and heart. I think I wrote this piece to get out of my head, observe what it was like and get it out of me. There is much to unpack here in the words that follow and I intend to uncover the subtext in this mysterious piece a little at a time...

It all begins with little noises in your head. Rising up and then going low from the front and back of the head like a Dolby surround system. The...

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Forgiveness: Let’s Start at the Very Ending...a Very Good Place to Start

blog Feb 27, 2018

If you know movies, especially musicals, the popular Julie Andrews classic “Do-Re-Mi” from The Sound of Music, opens with the lines, “Let’s start at the very beginning...a very good place to start...”! As I rummage through the laundry, looking for single socks that magically disappear, something occurs to me – what if we start at the very ending? Or perhaps, consider, the ending?

I am changing things up on the blog. Today, I have an exercise for you. While reading this blog will help, doing an exercise will take it deeper and further, and I hope that you will go there with me. Grab a piece of paper and a pencil to jot down notes if you need to.

Here you go:

Step 1:

For a moment, pause to think of how you want to feel at the end of your days, what comes up for you? Where will you be? What will you be doing? Wearing? Who will be around you? What do those relationships look like, feel like? What is the expression on your face, 20, 30 or 40 years from...

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May There Be Love

blog Feb 21, 2018

These are incredible times. These are intense times. And this has been one unpredictable and fascinating week. On one hand for Valentine’s day, there were greeting cards, roses and chocolates, and we celebrated the love and relationships in our life, our special relationships. On the same day, we were faced with the devastating news of yet another school shooting, this time in Parkland, FL, claiming 17 lives.

Humanity is being summoned to rise up to an incredible revolution, an inner revolution. There are many slogans and hashtags that are used in social media marketing like #metoo, #riseup, #timesup and many, many more. It is time to go beyond slogans and hashtags and BE the change we want to see in the world.

Our generation is being called to a deep awakening. Our humanity is not being merely nudged anymore. The time for subtlety has passed, now is a time for an undeniable and terrifying awakening. How do we hold steadfast in these times and move forward, authentically,...

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Keeping It Together: Being Cause in the Matter of Peace

blog Feb 13, 2018

Rainbows and puppies. Unicorns and butterflies. Rose colored glasses. Life’s just peachy.

Some time ago, that was me. Always looking at the “bright side”, being “positive” and having a half-glass-full attitude! No matter what the challenge, I kept looking for the silver lining in every grey cloud. This by no means was a graceful act. It was exhausting. Imagine being tortured into looking like you are happy? Hiding your scars and smiling, pretending nothing hurts? Scratching and clawing while desperate for freedom from the pain, and no one knows.

I had spent so much energy on “keeping it together” because that’s what I understood being an adult, mature and responsible meant. I had the belief that in order to be successful I had to push everything negative, bad or faulty in my life aside, or way, way down, and never expose my pain or my flaws. Put up and shut up, that was the motto and plan. However false, keep my head held up high, like...

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Is There Something Under the Golden Tarp?

blog Feb 06, 2018

Imagine living in a beautiful home, a palace almost. Having cars, chauffeurs, maids, cooks, an entourage at your beck and call. A personal assistant, a wardrobe stylist, personal tailor, makeup artist, hair designer and personal trainer...all there to take care of you every day, to help you be the best you that you could be. That was my life when I had a career as a film actress. On the surface it looked like I lived this palatial, privileged and perfect life. But only I knew that inside this palace there was a pile of crap covered up with a golden tarp. (For my international readers, a tarp is a heavy duty weatherproof covering, cloth or canvas.)

Imagine having a pile of junk, scrap and old debris, stacked under this glimmering, glittery piece of fabric that you never look under. Can you picture this? Can you relate to this? I had no idea that my life had such a heavy dose of illusion, fantasy and denial. But that was how I coped with the trauma of my abusive childhood. I just...

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Seek Only the Barriers to Love

blog Jan 29, 2018

A member in the audience of a talk philosopher J. Krishnamurti was giving in 1964 asked a question, “Why do we love our mothers so much?” To which J. Krishnamurti responded with, “Do you love your mother if you hate your father? When you love somebody very much, do you exclude others from that love? If you really love your mother, don’t you also love your father, your aunt, your neighbor? Don’t  you have the feeling of love first, then the love of someone in particular? Can you be considerate of your mother if you are not being considerate of also another? Otherwise, you don’t really love your mother, it is just a word, a convenience.”

Another mentor I have in my life often says, ”Teach only love, because that is who you really are. Everything else is false, or the ego, or based in fear.” If you think about it, everyone is a teacher. Every single one of us. From little babies to the elderly, there is not a single person who...

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Happy RENEW Year

blog Jan 23, 2018

Just when you thought the cascade of “Happy New Year” wishes had dried up, here I am to wish you not just a Happy New Year but in fact a Happy RENEW Year!

For my part this year feels like a year to reset, reboot and relaunch! The past 18 months have been an incredible and intense journey on levels that I can’t get into in one single blog. Suffice to say that I have referred to this past year a lot like Charles Dickens in the opening lines of his classic, A Tale of Two Cities, “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times”!

However, what I can say is that rather than a new year’s resolution, I chose to set an intention, and that intention is to make 2018 a year to RENEW!

To RENEW health, relationships, faith, connection to spirit, intuition and the voice of God.

To RENEW and remember that I possess innate peace and power within me. Everyone does. It is a power that can never be taken away. It has never been taken away. It has only ever been...

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Ditch the Drag & Transform 2018

blog Dec 06, 2017

Have you ever noticed sometimes your computer slows down? You check to see if you are still connected to wifi? You might delete some files, or close out some windows. Software needs an update? Or are too many programs running in the background?

A heavyweight lifter who has trained to lift 300 lbs, doesn’t just walk up to a 600 lb barbell and lift it without injury. No one, in their right mind that is, would ever buy a newborn baby a bicycle.

A few years ago the principle of “drag” was explained to me. In aerodynamics, it is the mechanical force that helps an airplane take off, land, even stay up in the air. But the drag has to be just right, or none of those things will occur. Some drag is good, but too much drag will not let an airplane even take off!

Our minds are like the world wide web, in a constant “browse” mode. Browsing our thoughts from the past, thoughts about the future and ever so rarely we pause for what is in the present. Staying in the...

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